My dad killed himself.

[$ayzak]

He told me all my life that I was the only reason he was in the world.

Lately our relationship turned icey, because I was trying to help him get over his addiction to morphine but he wasn't sincere about recovering.

It was overwhelming for me to run his errends, and try to help him knowing he didn't actually want help. So finally, after he said some manipulative things to me, making me feel guilty for not trying HARD enough to help him, I stopped speaking to him.

He finally managed to get a hold of me the other day, and all he wanted was to write me a letter, tell me he loved me, and someday I'd understand his problems.

Now he's dead.

I'm gonna feel pretty guilty when it hits me.

[Rap Weasel]

Sorry man..I really dont know what else to say, but dont blame yourself.

[$ayzak]

The coroner (sp?) just told me the details. My dad used a sawed-off shotgun.

He's attempted suicide before, by taking drugs.

I guess he was serious this time.

[Cerpin Taxt]

sorry to hear this man,l i send my deepest thoughts to you. hang in there

[GOAT]

yeah, sorry man... you shouldn't blame yourself. you might feel that way for a while but it wasn't your fault. i hope you get through this ok. you'll be in my thoughts man.

[Alexnova]

It's amazing that someone has ended one's life, even your father. Did he ever stop to realize what emotional trauma he would bring the family when he passed away?

But I'm sure he is in a much better place now. My deepest condolensces. Cope well.

[$ayzak]

My dad was never good at tact. My uncle just died (his sister's husband) about a month ago.

[pnutwannabe]

You have no idea how truly sorry I am to hear about this. Please do not blame yourself. This is in no way your fault. I am truly sorry.

[mary]

sorry bro. try to keep your head up and use this as motivation to do something postive in/with your life.

do not feel guilty. feel sad and then find some closure, but don't feel guilty.

[Shiny]

REALLY sorry to hear about this, man. Like the others have said, do NOT blame yourself. You aren't responsible for his problems or actions. You and your family are in my thoughts.

[Jordan311]

Damn bro, that's brutal Sorry to hear it. Like everyone else says, don't blame yourself because it is in no way your fault.

Later

[$ayzak]

Thanks guys...

[starshines311]

I am really sorry to hear that , just remember who are and what you live for. Find closure and everything will be ok.

[Jorge]

sorry bro. try to keep your head up and use this as motivation to do something postive in/with your life.

do not feel guilty. feel sad and then find some closure, but don't feel guilty.

Ron Mexico said it best ZakSay, you'll get through this. I mean c'mon, your SAYZAK the BADASS MOTHERFUCKER from Minnesota.

You will be in my thoughts man.

[Flowing]

I'm soo sorry to hear this, you are probably tired of reading this but like everyone else said its not your fault and dont beat your self down from it. I know you will get through this, stay strong and keep your head up high.

[$lmjimy311]

sorry to hear this man, im gonna follow the cliche and jump on the bandwagon on this one, its not your fault, you did nothing but what you could do...rest easy

[Drums]

Hey man I'm sure its redundant, but that shit sucks man, sorry to hear that..

And no one can blame themselves for someone elses suicide, its no one elses fault but theirs.

Just keep you head up and your thoughts clear and keep goin, it gets as better as it can as time goes on...

[CatCity]

man im real sorry about this. stay positive man. im sorry

[juanbond7]

Man that sucks alot and I am very sorry that it happened to you, a fellow 311 fan. Stay positive and love YOUR life.

[$lmjimy311]

if it helps any, i do belive that "beyond the gray sky" is exactly what this situation is about